This little guy (who sold at my last exhibition!), Pierrot, is exactly how I feel these days. Some sort of jellyfish blob dreaming, searching. These past months definitely have not been the easiest in my life. Which isn’t a negative thing: they’ve also been full of surprises and laughs and a lot of learning.
One of those lessons is learning that YOU CANT DO EVERYTHING. what?? really? well. if you want to stay sane, that is.
Let me explain.
There were more than a few moments in my life where I wasn’t expressing my creativity to the fullest. And then I moved to Montreal. I don’t know what it is about this place, but it wooed me with its charm and beauty and lovely people and tiny nooks and crannies and cold winter days and bikes whirring through the streets and artists creating and alternative lifestyles and amazing musicians.
So my creativity bloomed. And flourished. And MAN am I having fun :) I hope everyone at some point will be able to experience that feeling of personal self-fulfillment I derive from creating every day. From letting loose. Jumping into the unknown. Delving into the unchartered waters of your imagination. Not caring about the result, just loving the process, loving the process.
And loving it that much more when you stop, and the result feels right.
That doesn’t mean it’s like that every day. But those moments are so precious, that they make you forget those other moments, the ones where self-doubt and frustration spread their tiny tendrils and try to take root.
But there’s another side to this.
When you’ve been holding back on your creativity, and you start letting it loose, like I did, there’s always a risk. A risk that that creative trickle becomes a stream a river a waterfall: your imagination, your subconscious, whatever you want to call it, becomes obsessed with finding a way out; overwhelmed with the desire to express itself. Every moment that you’re not creating, new ideas, new projects, new developments pop up and you’re changing this idea and adding to that one and wanting more and creating more and wishing you had more time and wanting to split yourself in a thousand little pieces to be able to make all the thousand insane ideas become a reality. Overwhelming. Fear of loss.
That’s the risk. Is it worth it?
So I’m learning. I’m learning that noone - other than myself - can stop me from creating. Which means there’s no urgency to do all of it now. Real life (=work) is valuable. Necessary. The fear of losing ideas is ludicrous. Our mind is vast, bottomless. Millions of thoughts arise from its depths each and every second. They’re not lost. They’re just wandering.
I think my role is just to hear them. Put images on the ones that are there when I am there to catch them. Let the other ones drift away.
They’ll be back.
- On the 12th of September (this Sunday) I will be at the Village des artistes et des artisans de Côte-des-Neiges from noon to 4 pm.
- On the 15th of September I will be at Chez Sasha’s networking/exhibiting event.
- On the 17th of september I will be at the craft fair at the Café Touski.
- On October 22nd and 23rd I will be selling at the Old Skool Crafts Halloween Carnaval craft fair.
- And finally, in November (and December and January) I will be exhibiting at Usine 106u gallery which I’m very excited about!!
- On the 26th of November you’ll also find me at a Xmas Craft Fair in NDG
I’d love to see you at any of these events :) feel free to join me - I will definitely have tons of new goodies!