That eerie eerie feeling of being a stranger in familiar land, like finding dusty photographs of childhood memories you don’t quite remember. Knowing you will never quite fit in anywhere and that’s alright.
As you might (or might not!) know, my friend Élise and I embarked recently on a puppet-theatre-creating adventure. We spent 5 months working very intensely on it, 5 to 7 days a week for 8 to 10 hours a day. Thanks to all the hard work we put in as well as the kind words and support from friends, we presented a show that we are both very proud of, both visually and theatrically. We had 5 presentations in Montreal and got an amazing amount of positive feedback. The most touching comments for me were the people who told me they got tears to their eyes, had shivers, or still thought about it in the days after the show. :)
This little guy (who sold at my last exhibition!), Pierrot, is exactly how I feel these days. Some sort of jellyfish blob dreaming, searching. These past months definitely have not been the easiest in my life. Which isn’t a negative thing: they’ve also been full of surprises and laughs and a lot of learning.
One of those lessons is learning that YOU CANT DO EVERYTHING. what?? really? well. if you want to stay sane, that is.
Let me explain.
There were more than a few moments in my life where I wasn’t expressing my creativity to the fullest. And then I moved to Montreal. I don’t know what it is about this place, but it wooed me with its charm and beauty and lovely people and tiny nooks and crannies and cold winter days and bikes whirring through the streets and artists creating and alternative lifestyles and amazing musicians.
So my creativity bloomed. And flourished. And MAN am I having fun :) I hope everyone at some point will be able to experience that feeling of personal self-fulfillment I derive from creating every day. From letting loose. Jumping into the unknown. Delving into the unchartered waters of your imagination. Not caring about the result, just loving the process, loving the process.
And loving it that much more when you stop, and the result feels right.
That doesn’t mean it’s like that every day. But those moments are so precious, that they make you forget those other moments, the ones where self-doubt and frustration spread their tiny tendrils and try to take root.
But there’s another side to this.
When you’ve been holding back on your creativity, and you start letting it loose, like I did, there’s always a risk. A risk that that creative trickle becomes a stream a river a waterfall: your imagination, your subconscious, whatever you want to call it, becomes obsessed with finding a way out; overwhelmed with the desire to express itself. Every moment that you’re not creating, new ideas, new projects, new developments pop up and you’re changing this idea and adding to that one and wanting more and creating more and wishing you had more time and wanting to split yourself in a thousand little pieces to be able to make all the thousand insane ideas become a reality. Overwhelming. Fear of loss.
That’s the risk. Is it worth it?
So I’m learning. I’m learning that noone - other than myself - can stop me from creating. Which means there’s no urgency to do all of it now. Real life (=work) is valuable. Necessary. The fear of losing ideas is ludicrous. Our mind is vast, bottomless. Millions of thoughts arise from its depths each and every second. They’re not lost. They’re just wandering.
I think my role is just to hear them. Put images on the ones that are there when I am there to catch them. Let the other ones drift away.
As the title indicates, it’s my last one before Christmas and VACATION (that’ll feel so good)! I’ll be participating in the CEASE holiday flea market for the first time and I heard that last year was a lot of fun :) There will be a gaggle of talented artists that I love such as The Lonely Pixel, Nicole Aline Legault, JP King and Kirsten McCrea. (yes I just used the word gaggle. According to our friend wikipedia: A gaggle is a term for a flock of geese that isn’t in flight. In terms of geese, a gaggle is equal to at least five geese. By no means, is my use of the word an insult to any of those involved, on the contrary - geese are pretty frickin cool.)
For the technical info, it will be on Saturday and Sunday from 10 am to 6 pm at the Fresh Paint Gallery, 180 St Catherine East!
I’m happy to say that this month has been pretty active and that next month will continue to be just as active.
I took part in an exhibition called “Monsters International”: a group exhibition where the main theme was, you guessed it, monsters. Three of my paintings were chosen to be a part of it and I was excited since it was my first ‘official’ exhibition! So many people came by to the opening, to show their support - filled my little heart with joy :)
And on Thursday the 3rd of November is the opening of the group exhibition at Usine 106U in Montreal,where you’ll be able to find 11 of my paintings, all nice and framed with mats that I spent HOURS cutting with my mom (thank you for your unbelievable help!!!!!)! I’m super excited and would love to see people there, so if ever you want to pop by and say hi, please do! If you don’t know the gallery, it’s a bit of an alternative/punk gallery - a lot of the paintings can be quite shocking but there’s also some really interesting artwork there! Mine is pretty different I guess so it’ll make an interesting mix :p
Sooo I finally decided to create little magnets with my art prints!! they’re super cute and are currently covering our fridge…. they’re a little bigger than a business card. I’ll be putting them up on etsy in not too long, but if you can’t wait, I’ll also be selling them at the Old Skool Crafts Halloween craft fair!
I’m going to be all dressed up for the occasion (I still need to find my costume actually… yup. oops.)
Of course, there are going to be a ton of other artists and crafters that create unique (and local) stuff. so come on by and say hi :)
(the poster for the craft fair is SO cool, I love it).
A preview of a 34 page zine I made!! :)The text of this little story was written by my very talented friend Julie Delporte. This story is in French, but I also have one story in English, an absurd (no-word) mini comic, as well as many little pictures in it, including my bike :)
or if you don’t want to sign up for etsy, you can do a 5$ +2$ (shipping) payment through Paypal! (my email is firstname.lastname@example.org - That’s all the info you need, you just have to send me your address).
Come check out my Facebook page and help me kickstart my art :)
I just made these cute little plushies…
Also, tomorrow (Saturday the 30th of July) I will be selling stuff (prints, plushies, earrings) at the Old Skool Crafts art fair in the church on Saint Viateur (and Saint Urbain), along with tons of other talented crafters and artists, from 11 am to 6pm! :)
Hi everyone!! I’m happy to say that I will be exhibiting some of my paintings at this event, along with other upcoming artists from Montreal. The interesting thing about this event is the multidisciplinarity it has: art, dance, installation, photography. I find that so stimulating!
Come by to say hi, have a look and munch on a cookie!
The event will be at La Cenne which is not far from the Jarry metro station or the 55 bus. Here is the exact address:
7755 St-Laurent suite 300Montreal, QC I hope to see you there!